Point One,
I really don't know. I was in a bad mood at work - which apparently isn't allowed to happen because Alannah always has to be in a good flipping mood. I get falsely accused of saying something, and made to feel like a shaken up tiny dog (they always shake...) Well yeah anyway. Forgive me if I am wrong, but I am hard working, and I would never, EVER say, "I am not fucking doing that." even to a colleague. So how dare this twat face scream at me and say I said it? Then apparently I said in a horrid tone, "how long is this going to take?" I remember this part because I actually said to her, "How many boxes are left". I said this because I needed to know how much space is needed to be made! I go in Saturday morning, happy, and then get dragged into the back shop and accused of all this in front of my manager and assistant manager. I used the analogy of a shaken small dog because I was shaking.. and almost wanting to cry. But I don't cry. She even said she felt like going into my mum's work and starting up a big fuss. SORRY BUT THAT IS MY MUM'S WORK.. NOT MINE! GOT A PROBLEM SAY IT TO ME, I AM THE ADULT!
What happens next? I have to put on a fake smile everytime I enter my work. I always put on a fake smile to the customers, but I would have actually liked to be able to be truthful to my work friends. Also, my mum has suggested putting a counter alligation form into my manager because I was so upset by what she said. She said there were witnesses. I have asked these said witnesses and they do not recall me saying anything like that. I was joined to Amy's hip all day, pretty sure she would have heard something... So, yeah.. not a great start =P
Point Two,
Even though me and my mum have our up's and down's I still love her unconditionally! So I say this once and once only, if anyone disrespects her I will most likely be pissed. Want to know who disrespected her? My ex. RIGHT! I spoke to his flipping mum, when she came into my work. I spoke to her in a nice manner - like nothing had happened. Yes I felt awkward, but the first thing you realise when being an adult is that you have to ignore awkward situations and make the most out of it! You cannot act immature and make every awkward moment even more awkward for the rest of your life - it just is not healthy. So... long story short, I wanted my stuff back that I had left with this ex. I emailed him a few weeks ago telling him to drop them off at Clarks because that is where I work. What does this shitface do? Drop them off at my mum's work. Come on !!!! Why does everyone have to involve my mum in everything. Since some people who read this do not have jobs, and do not understand how much shit she could have been in if her mananger was in, I will explain. If there was a large queue inside Costa, her manager was in, and this ex just walks up to the counter - ignoring everyone else, and dumps my shit on the counter, this can distrupt their work routine. It could also annoy a few customers! What if she was not in? What are her employees meant to do? What annoys me most is that he ignored her.. GROW UP!
What happens next? Well.. I am quite a spiteful bitch, so revenge could be on the cards. But I do not know yet. One thing is for sure, I have lost a few friends over this. Apparently I cannot see anything other than my own self... Twats ¬_¬ Last time I checked, I allowed my house to get trashed to throw this ex friend a birthday party! So yeah.. what that a selfish act or what?
Which brings me to point three,
I have lost a friend. A few people have told me I am better off, but am I really? What they failed to realise is that I am a bitch, but not to hurt people - no. I do it to people I truly dislike who annoy me and deserve it. If I was a bitch to anyone else they would never have cared. However since it is someone they care about they decide to get involved in something that does not concern them. That is what I really hate - people getting involved when it is not needed. If he has a problem with the actions I might commit then he should tell me. I know he doesn't want to talk to me because he is licking his wounds, but life is about getting hurt and taking chances. He got hurt, yes, but what he fails to understand is that he could have been more hurt if I stayed with him. Moving on is a hard thing, but just swollow your immaturity and do it! Oh well... if she wants to fall out with me because of who I truly am, then that is fine. There are people out there who know the true me and still love me.
What is next? Ignore all the people that I thought where my friends. There are better people out there for me. I have met amazing people recently who I consider my friends because they care about me. They ask me how I am, how things have gone, and they act mature. I learn from them and I am learning to grow up thanks to them. That is what I need, more mature people around me. Not immature people who make a big deal out of every little thing. I need people who are hard working and can set an example for me. I need people who are able to give me great advice because they may have been through what I have. I need a true friend. Not a five minute fling.
My week hasn't been all bad. But as they say, "bad luck comes in three". Well that is my three, let the luck begin, please? Positive thinking.. positive!
Bye =) x
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