What is it..?

What is love?

I love my family.. I love my friends.   But obviously these type of loves should be different than what you should have for your partner.
Quote: "Love is ecstasy and torment, freedom and slavery." - http://www.time.com/

On the other hand, I saw it as something completely different (or should I say.. I see it as). I see love as the one thing I cannot live without. Love isn't torment - instead it is pleasurable. I wasn't a slave, nor did I have the freedom to do what I wanted when I wanted because that would be called cheating. I worshipped the ground he walked on, I adored everything that annoyed me most about him.. But eventually those annoyance became unbearable.

It is horrible to change someone. You should never try it. You should always accept a person for who they are because that is who they always will be.
No one is perfect, no matter how hard you try.
But,.. gosh... *sighs* you have to go through life making sacrifices. YES I am an utter bitch and I am actually going to look after myself here for a change. But why the hell should I sarcrifice my happiness and continue lieing to someone that I DO LOVE!

Honesty Corner....
1. Woo.. I am going to University, probably to one that is two and a half hours away on the train. I will miss my family very much. Look at this... If I want to see my family during the weekends it will be hard to see a boyfriend. -Family comes first-

2. Again.. I am going to University. What If I meet a whole new group of friends that I spend most weekends partying with and I WILL always be restricted by how much fun I have incase I do fuck up like I did New Year.  -Freedom of Choice-

3. On a lighter note... If I truly believe we are soul mates (Which I do.. a bit =/)  Then the Universe will have a way of putting us together. People who are destined to be together do end up together. Heck it took my mum 36 Years to find her soul mate.

4. I love the idea of commitment I do. But I just don't think I am in the right frame of mind for it at the moment. I am still in the process of discovering who I am and what I want out of life (Well... I do know what I want out of life.) You have to love yourself before you can love anyone else. That is what I need to do...
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I am Sorry for lieing to you Saturday and seeming everything was ok.
I am Sorry for doing this to you. But writing is the only way I can express my feelings. I am terrible with words.
I am Sorry that I do love you -I am in love with you- but unable to commit to anyone until I have finished with my education. Because us together would be a distraction and I want to succeed in life.

IT IS EXAM TIME EVERYONE!!! =D

I LOVE EXAMS!!! =] I was contemplating doing a blog about my attitudes towards religion, but I think I will save that for another time =)

I honestly do not understand why but exams do not stress me as much as everyday life does. I know there is no going back afterwards. BUT what really makes me happy is that there is. Week beginning the 13th of June we all have resits if we do not get the grade we want [cool right?].

But no ... in all seriousness I think of it in this way -

"What is done, is done"

I do not stress because I know I have worked hard over the year [some may dispute this. You do not see what goes on behind close doors!]. Yes, I do have an obsession with working out which may take time out from my studying. BUT surprisingly, teachers always say do not cram revision in two weeks before your exams, but I do that BECAUSE it works best for me.

Right.. I do not understand why they tell us this?

Do we not know from our own experiences what works best for us?

OR

Are we just lazy gits who fail to take into account the significance of these exams?

BOTH!!!! =L



This goes out for all you stressers out there...

CALM!   Go to Yoga if you honestly have to.. OH! I know - how about you write some study notes then once you have attempted to memorise them; rip them up. That could relieve a few stresses.

OR!

Get a picture of someone you hate [I have a feeling many of these pictures will be of me] and rip that up - or burn it.. Fire is good. Just do not play with it.

At night - get a rubber duck for your bath [I would call mine Penelope]. Name it. Get bubbles. AND RELAX!

If you know yourself you will be fine. You have had all these years to realise what works best for you. Take a moment to think what it is.

For me, I will have to have notes, music, and go for a walk... I just hope that the vehicles brakes work =(

Anyway all my shitty joking aside...

GOOD LUCK!!

You do not need it, as I have faith in all thee who come to read me ^-^ 

Goodnight <3